during the 5 days I was in Taiwan, my dad has made really good progress physically.  He is now only limited by his speech.  I was able to give him as much speech therapy as I could over there, he was making slow progress when I left.  So right now, it seems like the only therapy needed is speech.  I wish I could be there to provide him the therapy needed.  but at least he is getting 3x a week over there. 

I was so happy to be home to see my boys.  However, Ian didn't want to come to me the morning he woke up and saw me the first time.  He was clinging onto Greg, which never happened before.  He kept looking at me, confused... Greg said they had to stop mentioning me  during the entire time I was gone, so that he wouldn't think about me.  I think he almost blocked me out of his mind, and when he saw me, he didn't know what to make of it.  But now, he is back to himself, but he would actually go to Greg more now, which is a good thing. 

Seeing my dad reminded me how much I missed him.   I wish he can meet the kids.  I really want to bring the kids back to Taiwan to meet him.  But could it work?  would I die of fatigue bringing 2 kids back? and plus my dad's house is really not that comfortable. i don't know how I can make that happen...

Its been so long since I blogged, probably because of facebook.  Recently Greg and I have been discussing the possibility of more children.  I always wanted a big family.  At one time, I wanted 4 children!  But after Lucas came along, I thought that 4 is A LOT  of kids.  But now, i think 4 would be good, but insanely difficult.  I think Greg's limit is probably 3 kids..even that he is still very hesitant.  He thinks it's nice to have more kids, but he's not sure if he'll be able to handle more kids, since it's already difficult with 2.   RIght now we can each take one, and it's manageable.  but if we have 3, we'll be outnumbered, and i don't know how we can handle that., especially Ian is extremely attached to me.

This week is camp for lucas at church.  I am also taking a workshop on the "Essentials of Discipline" by Dr. James Dobson.  It's been really helpful for me to really view disciplining as an act of Love, and how God disciplines us because He loves us.  And we discipline our children because we love them, and not because they are not living up to our standards or because their behaviors inconveniences us.  However, often times, Lucas gets me so angry, that that Love feeling just gets taken over by my anger, and I found myself yelling at him.  After the past few days of workshop, i am trying to discipline with a firm and consistent tone of voice.  But i still find it difficult sometimes as to which battle I should take on.